London was our present point of rest; we determined to remain
several months in this wonderful and celebrated city. Clerval desired
the intercourse of the men of genius and talent who flourished at this time,
but this was with me a secondary object; I was principally occupied
with the means of obtaining the information necessary for the completion
of my promise and quickly availed myself of the letters of introduction
that I had brought with me, addressed to the most distinguished
If this journey had taken place during my days of study and happiness,
it would have afforded me inexpressible pleasure. But a blight
had come over my existence, and I only visited these people
for the sake of the information they might give me on the subject
in which my interest was so terribly profound. Company was irksome to me;
when alone, I could fill my mind with the sights of heaven and earth;
the voice of Henry soothed me, and I could thus cheat myself
into a transitory peace. But busy, uninteresting, joyous faces
brought back despair to my heart. I saw an insurmountable barrier
placed between me and my fellow men; this barrier was sealed
with the blood of William and Justine, and to reflect on the events
connected with those names filled my soul with anguish.
But in Clerval I saw the image of my former self; he was inquisitive
and anxious to gain experience and instruction. The difference of manners
which he observed was to him an inexhaustible source of instruction
and amusement. He was also pursuing an object he had long had in view.
His design was to visit India, in the belief that he had in his knowledge
of its various languages, and in the views he had taken of its society,
the means of materially assisting the progress of European colonization
and trade. In Britain only could he further the execution of his plan.
He was forever busy, and the only check to his enjoyments was my sorrowful
and dejected mind. I tried to conceal this as much as possible,
that I might not debar him from the pleasures natural to one
who was entering on a new scene of life, undisturbed by any care
or bitter recollection. I often refused to accompany him,
alleging another engagement, that I might remain alone. I now also began
to collect the materials necessary for my new creation,
and this was to me like the torture of single drops of water
continually falling on the head. Every thought that was devoted to it
was an extreme anguish, and every word that I spoke in allusion to it
caused my lips to quiver, and my heart to palpitate.
After passing some months in London, we received a letter from a person
in Scotland who had formerly been our visitor at Geneva. He mentioned
the beauties of his native country and asked us if those were not sufficient
allurements to induce us to prolong our journey as far north as Perth,
where he resided. Clerval eagerly desired to accept this invitation,
and I, although I abhorred society, wished to view again mountains
and streams and all the wondrous works with which Nature adorns
her chosen dwelling-places. We had arrived in England at the beginning
of October, and it was now February. We accordingly determined
to commence our journey towards the north at the expiration
of another month. In this expedition we did not intend to follow
the great road to Edinburgh, but to visit Windsor, Oxford, Matlock,
and the Cumberland lakes, resolving to arrive at the completion
of this tour about the end of July. I packed up my chemical instruments
and the materials I had collected, resolving to finish my labours
in some obscure nook in the northern highlands of Scotland.
We quitted London on the 27th of March and remained a few days at Windsor,
rambling in its beautiful forest. This was a new scene to us mountaineers;
the majestic oaks, the quantity of game, and the herds of stately deer
were all novelties to us.
From thence we proceeded to Oxford. As we entered this city
our minds were filled with the remembrance of the events
that had been transacted there more than a century and a half before.
It was here that Charles I had collected his forces. This city
had remained faithful to him, after the whole nation had forsaken his cause
to join the standard of Parliament and liberty. The memory
of that unfortunate king and his companions, the amiable Falkland,
the insolent Goring, his queen, and son, gave a peculiar interest
to every part of the city which they might be supposed to have inhabited.
The spirit of elder days found a dwelling here, and we delighted
to trace its footsteps. If these feelings had not found
an imaginary gratification, the appearance of the city had yet in itself
sufficient beauty to obtain our admiration. The colleges are ancient
and picturesque; the streets are almost magnificent; and the lovely Isis,
which flows beside it through meadows of exquisite verdure,
is spread forth into a placid expanse of waters, which reflects
its majestic assemblage of towers, and spires, and domes,
embosomed among aged trees.
I enjoyed this scene, and yet my enjoyment was embittered
both by the memory of the past and the anticipation of the future.
I was formed for peaceful happiness. During my youthful days
discontent never visited my mind, and if I was ever overcome by ennui,
the sight of what is beautiful in nature or the study of what is excellent
and sublime in the productions of man could always interest my heart
and communicate elasticity to my spirits. But I am a blasted tree;
the bolt has entered my soul; and I felt then that I should survive
to exhibit what I shall soon cease to be--a miserable spectacle
of wrecked humanity, pitiable to others and intolerable to myself.
We passed a considerable period at Oxford, rambling among its environs
and endeavouring to identify every spot which might relate
to the most animating epoch of English history. Our little voyages
of discovery were often prolonged by the successive objects
that presented themselves. We visited the tomb of the illustrious Hampden
and the field on which that patriot fell. For a moment my soul was elevated
from its debasing and miserable fears to contemplate the divine ideas
of liberty and self sacrifice of which these sights were the monuments
and the remembrancers. For an instant I dared to shake off my chains
and look around me with a free and lofty spirit, but the iron
had eaten into my flesh, and I sank again, trembling and hopeless,
into my miserable self.
We left Oxford with regret and proceeded to Matlock, which was
our next place of rest. The country in the neighbourhood
of this village resembled, to a greater degree, the scenery of Switzerland;
but everything is on a lower scale, and the green hills
want the crown of distant white Alps which always attend
on the piny mountains of my native country. We visited the wondrous cave
and the little cabinets of natural history, where the curiosities
are disposed in the same manner as in the collections
at Servox and Chamounix. The latter name made me tremble
when pronounced by Henry, and I hastened to quit Matlock,
with which that terrible scene was thus associated.
From Derby, still journeying northwards, we passed two months
in Cumberland and Westmorland. I could now almost fancy myself
among the Swiss mountains. The little patches of snow
which yet lingered on the northern sides of the mountains, the lakes,
and the dashing of the rocky streams were all familiar
and dear sights to me. Here also we made some acquaintances,
who almost contrived to cheat me into happiness. The delight of Clerval
was proportionably greater than mine; his mind expanded
in the company of men of talent, and he found in his own nature
greater capacities and resources than he could have imagined himself
to have possessed while he associated with his inferiors.
"I could pass my life here," said he to me; "and among these
I should scarcely regret Switzerland and the Rhine."
But he found that a traveller's life is one that includes much pain
amidst its enjoyments. His feelings are forever on the stretch;
and when he begins to sink into repose, he finds himself obliged
to quit that on which he rests in pleasure for something new,
which again engages his attention, and which also he forsakes
for other novelties.
We had scarcely visited the various lakes of Cumberland
and Westmorland and conceived an affection for some of the inhabitants
when the period of our appointment with our Scotch friend approached,
and we left them to travel on. For my own part I was not sorry.
I had now neglected my promise for some time, and I feared the effects
of the daemon's disappointment. He might remain in Switzerland
and wreak his vengeance on my relatives. This idea pursued me
and tormented me at every moment from which I might otherwise
have snatched repose and peace. I waited for my letters
with feverish impatience; if they were delayed I was miserable
and overcome by a thousand fears; and when they arrived
and I saw the superscription of Elizabeth or my father, I hardly dared
to read and ascertain my fate. Sometimes I thought that the fiend
followed me and might expedite my remissness by murdering my companion.
When these thoughts possessed me, I would not quit Henry for a moment,
but followed him as his shadow, to protect him from the fancied rage
of his destroyer. I felt as if I had committed some great crime,
the consciousness of which haunted me. I was guiltless, but I had indeed
drawn down a horrible curse upon my head, as mortal as that of crime.
I visited Edinburgh with languid eyes and mind; and yet that city
might have interested the most unfortunate being. Clerval did not like it
so well as Oxford, for the antiquity of the latter city was more pleasing
to him. But the beauty and regularity of the new town of Edinburgh,
its romantic castle and its environs, the most delightful in the world,
Arthur's Seat, St. Bernard's Well, and the Pentland Hills compensated him
for the change and filled him with cheerfulness and admiration.
But I was impatient to arrive at the termination of my journey.
We left Edinburgh in a week, passing through Coupar, St. Andrew's,
and along the banks of the Tay, to Perth, where our friend expected us.
But I was in no mood to laugh and talk with strangers or enter
into their feelings or plans with the good humour expected from a guest;
and accordingly I told Clerval that I wished to make the tour of Scotland
alone. "Do you," said I, "enjoy yourself, and let this be
I may be absent a month or two; but do not interfere with my motions,
I entreat you; leave me to peace and solitude for a short time;
and when I return, I hope it will be with a lighter heart,
more congenial to your own temper.
Henry wished to dissuade me, but seeing me bent on this plan,
ceased to remonstrate. He entreated me to write often.
"I had rather be with you," he said, "in your solitary rambles,
than with these Scotch people, whom I do not know; hasten, then,
my dear friend, to return, that I may again feel myself somewhat at home,
which I cannot do in your absence."
Having parted from my friend, I determined to visit some remote spot
of Scotland and finish my work in solitude. I did not doubt
but that the monster followed me and would discover himself to me
when I should have finished, that he might receive his companion.
With this resolution I traversed the northern highlands
and fixed on one of the remotest of the Orkneys as the scene of my labours.
It was a place fitted for such a work, being hardly more than a rock
whose high sides were continually beaten upon by the waves.
The soil was barren, scarcely affording pasture for a few miserable cows,
and oatmeal for its inhabitants, which consisted of five persons,
whose gaunt and scraggy limbs gave tokens of their miserable fare.
Vegetables and bread, when they indulged in such luxuries,
and even fresh water, was to be procured from the mainland,
which was about five miles distant.
On the whole island there were but three miserable huts,
and one of these was vacant when I arrived. This I hired.
It contained but two rooms, and these exhibited all the squalidness
of the most miserable penury. The thatch had fallen in,
the walls were unplastered, and the door was off its hinges.
I ordered it to be repaired, bought some furniture, and took possession,
an incident which would doubtless have occasioned some surprise
had not all the senses of the cottagers been benumbed by want
and squalid poverty. As it was, I lived ungazed at and unmolested,
hardly thanked for the pittance of food and clothes which I gave,
so much does suffering blunt even the coarsest sensations of men.
In this retreat I devoted the morning to labour; but in the evening,
when the weather permitted, I walked on the stony beach of the sea
to listen to the waves as they roared and dashed at my feet.
It was a monotonous yet ever-changing scene. I thought of Switzerland;
it was far different from this desolate and appalling landscape.
Its hills are covered with vines, and its cottages are scattered thickly
in the plains. Its fair lakes reflect a blue and gentle sky,
and when troubled by the winds, their tumult is but as the play
of a lively infant when compared to the roarings of the giant ocean.
In this manner I distributed my occupations when I first arrived,
but as I proceeded in my labour, it became every day more horrible
and irksome to me. Sometimes I could not prevail on myself
to enter my laboratory for several days, and at other times
I toiled day and night in order to complete my work. It was, indeed,
a filthy process in which I was engaged. During my first experiment,
a kind of enthusiastic frenzy had blinded me to the horror of my employment;
my mind was intently fixed on the consummation of my labour, and my eyes
were shut to the horror of my proceedings. But now I went to it
in cold blood, and my heart often sickened at the work of my hands.
Thus situated, employed in the most detestable occupation,
immersed in a solitude where nothing could for an instant call
my attention from the actual scene in which I was engaged,
my spirits became unequal; I grew restless and nervous. Every moment
I feared to meet my persecutor. Sometimes I sat with my eyes
fixed on the ground, fearing to raise them lest they should encounter
the object which I so much dreaded to behold. I feared to wander
from the sight of my fellow creatures lest when alone
he should come to claim his companion.
In the mean time I worked on, and my labour was already
considerably advanced. I looked towards its completion with a tremulous
and eager hope, which I dared not trust myself to question but which
was intermixed with obscure forebodings of evil that made my heart sicken
in my bosom.
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